Mendocino,
I lost my older brother suddenly last year - in the middle of having 3 hurricanes damage my home - so I know a little of loss and the pain associated with it...
May the burden of pain ease to where you can leave it aside and continue forward with your life. Life is for living and those who have passed would not want us to stop living. To honor THEIR lives - we need to make the most of our lives. LIVESTRONG and make them proud!